3 Personal Songs

Well God knows how long I haven't wrote something on my blog.. I guess i was just plain lazy. Life's still being the same - Boring at times, stressful during the period of p1.. It's still interesting but I just can't find the motivation to note it down. It's year 2 and I'm a junior now. Class is still the same, I'm still as lost as ever. It's like there is no advancement. Maybe there is but not that I'd feel it so closely. Sometimes I feel like I'm really alone. Friends, classmates.. do they really matters? I feel as if they are all going to leave when the time comes. I always lied to myself that I'm always alone and hence I'm independent. The truth is I'm not. Not at all. All the time I yearns for someone whom I can rely on. In fact, I've always been looking for people, only to be shoved away. With this, songs came to my mind. Songs which I think describes my life perfectly. Firstly, "Creep" by Radiohead. A fantastic song. Sometimes I see myself as a creep - an unsociable creep. I wondered if I don't mix well with others because I'm weird. Secondly, "Someone like you" by Boys Like Girls. I've always running away from the divines. I grew up as a Buddhist, praying with joysticks, burning paper and stuff. Then, when I was exposed to other religions, I felt damn lost. Why are there so many religions which contradicts each other's beliefs. I felt really scared and decided to stay away from them for the time being. Sometimes I claim to not believe in Gods anymore, but then occasionally I found myself in need of something to believe in. I hope to find someone in the future, someone who I'm willing to follow. Well, "Someone like you". Lastly, I'd have "Story of Us" by Taylor Swift. The lyrics speaks the exact sentiment of the time which I got cold with.. "Jerry". We used to chat so much and suddenly everything just dies down. It's really stupid when I think back. It's like we cross path and both of us waits for other one to greet first but that didn't happen and we thought we somehow offended each other and never talked ever after. Ridiculous.