2010 coming to an end!

2011 !!! If you ask me if I'm looking forward to it, sorry no. 2011 is going to be such a significant year, a lot of years is going to happen, a lot of things is going to change, and its scary. I'm being a little apprehensive towards 2011 for that, but I'm sure I'm going to enjoy the year as much as I suffers in it. So its the last day of 2010. A quick recap on 2010, its not such a bad year actually. I got to know her, well, not sure whether I should consider that a bad or good thing. I'd quite a lot of fun with my friends, been through a lot during the N Level period.... Went to different places. Although it did not get really good towards the end of the year, as I got that ear infection and couldnt enjoy my holiday, besides that I think this year was fair. Everyone gets ill, its just the timing, but I know I'm really weak so other than working hard on studies next year, I got my health to troubled on. Whatever there in stored for me next year, I'll be waiting. :)

Christmas turns into Living Hell

Its been very bad recently. Its really really REALLY rare for my cousins to come to Singapore. And I can't even enjoy their visit before of the ear infection.... I thought of curse, taboo or whatsoever. What could had caused the cough, flu, sore throat, ear infection, ear blockage, deafness, dizziness, blur sight and inability to urinate? Sorry I gonna emphasize on that cause its my main concern now.. Do you know how its feels like? I use to think, "Why can't I hold my bladder????" and now I'm doing a great job. So great that it can't even come out. Forget about that, these days were like living hell... Can't go anywhere, and hurts like fish. Theres so many medicines to eat.. and of course, soo many side effects. Honestly, I rather take the pain rather then taking those pain killers with nasty side effects. Well, while I'm sooooo sick, my parents were the onces taking care of me. I'm so grateful that I'd such great parents. I feel very safe when I'm with them, and hope I can get well soon so they wo't need to worry about me. Haiz. God bless.

Another decision to make

Guessssssssss what? Imma going to Sec 5! Yeah I know I need to be responsible for this choice I'd made as the path in front of me will not be easy. Most teachers are intimidating us instead of encourage us. But I think its good as we don't know what will happen in Sec 5. They dun want us to regret in Sec 5 and waste the whole year. For me, I'd made up my mind. Yes, Sec 5 shall be my destination. I thought that I could start enjoying after I get back my results, but to get us prepare, we'd already receive a huge amount of holiday home works. We are suppose to pass it up on the first day of school... Crap, just nice, how am I going to finish them all... Recently I'm not feeling very well either, therefore I can hardly concentrate on the home works. I got a sore throat last week, and today my ear got some kind of infection. It was freaking painful, as if my ear was going to explode.. I bought a ear drop and pain killer, so fortunately it doesnt hurt as much as it hurt in the morning.

Damn the (date) results!!

Ok, here I am, in my grandma's house. My brother and my cousins had went to Kuantan. So why am I still here? Cause the release of my N Level results have such a great timing. While others are enjoying in Kuantan, I will be in Singapore either (1.) Happy! Score well for N and capable of going to sec 5. (2.) Emo... You know why... Ok, before all of this happens, I might be killed by apprehension. I know whats done is done, but I will still be worried. I guess its only nature to feel that way. The day after tomorrow will be the day which decides my destiny. I'll be going back to Singapore tomorrow. I was thinking of going to Kuantan after i received my results; maybe 18 or 19... but theres so many BB programs packed for me! I really really really wanna spend more time with my cousins.. (or izzit in Malaysia).. What I'm looking forward to is the Christmas party. I personally thinks that its going to be fun. I really hope she attends... or maybe not. I cant tell what she really is.. Friend? Acquaintance? Stranger? I'm sure she used to be a person who shares the same interest with me. How did it end up this way.. Cursed.

sixteen

Yesterday was my BIG DAY!! I wanted to update my blog yesterday since it was my birthday, but my day was so packed that I doesnt have any time. I guess this year, I got my most "active" birthday. How should I put this? I usually spend by birthday at home, with a small celebration with my family. Small celebration = Cake + Birthday song. For this year, 2010, I went to Malaysia with my family. We first went for a big meal ( lunch ). Herb chicken song and more.. Definitely delicious. Den we went to my aunty house for a little chat there and went to KTV. Thats how I spent my birthday!! I find that I'm blessed to be able to celebrate my birthday with my family. I'm also pleased that soooooo many people posted birthday greetings on my facebook wall. Seriously, all those posts mean a lot to me. And i very expected so many people to post. Taylor Swift posted too. lol. My friend introduced her profile to me. I dunnno if its really her, I dun care. But the thing is, whoever she is, cared to stop by my page and posted a birthday greetings. And..... I wanted to end this off saying " Game Over ". Yeah cause its all over :/

Prom Night

Just came back from prom night! Everyone was well-dressed, smart and excited! The ball room was filled with handsome guys and beautiful girls, I'm sure it was memorable for most of us. But this prom night wasn't much of a thing for an introvert like me. Many people sees their classmate and start talking loudly. But for me, its hard to start a topic with someone... And i realised that i dun really know much people. It was really awkward.. The food there were so-so. I liked some of them, especially the cold dish, and disliked some like the black glutinous rice with coconut milk which were seriously sweet.. And, someone who caused my mix emotion turns up unexpectedly during the prom.. That makes the whole situation worse.. I guess introverts can only make real friends with other introverts, or the super out-going ones who are willing to take the initiative to talk to you first. I guess my "pain" comes from what I'm ; an introvert. Someone told me before that pain is to help you realise something is wrong and therefore you can make changes.. But for something like personality, its really hard to change.. Its really hard for me. Introverts doesnt really have a place in this world..

New House, New Home !!

WOOOOOOOH. I'm moving house soon. I'd been living in my current house for 16 years; ever since I'm born. This house holds a lot of memories; my childhood and all.. To be honest, I could not bear to leave this house. It's not just a house, it's my home for more than a decade. A place which gives me the sense of security, a place which shelter me from the rain and the sun. Of course, I'll be a little sentimental when I needs to leave a home I lived for so long. But for my home-to-be, I'd just went there yesterday and I'm pretty satisfy with it. It's in Punggol, very far from my school. The place is currently in development, so in the near future its going to be a great place. I'm both looking forward and don't feel like it... Mix emotion.... Hahaha!! I'll miss you, Yishun Ring Road 257, #05-1029. :(

ROFL

Yesterday I'd a great time ROFL!! My dad is a joker. He loves to dance around when he sees me, since I was young. When I was young, I loves to play with him too. We were both like dancing around, making my mom and brother laugh out loud. Last time I used to imitate Korean Star, G-Dragon's "Heartbreaker" dance move. My dad always do the parody version. HAHAHAHA. ( Not that he did it on purpose; he just can't dance! ) Den nowadays when he dance in front of me, it just irritates me.. :( It really kinda pisses me off when he keeps on doing that. But yesterday... It happens when he was about to fart and he went all the way to my bedroom. ( Long story.. Cause his fart can be sooooo strong that my mom and I couldn't take it. So we requested that if he wants to fart, go to a distance before doing that ) So I was like, " Dun fart into my room! ". Den he starts dancing... But he was oblivious that the neighbour was passing by, den one of the lady saw him dancing. He stopped immediately after he notice and blamed me for not telling him. Well, I say I did that on purpose for a good laugh. He was so embarrassed and he definitely learnt his lesson. I asked him if he would dance again after the incident. He replied, " Ofcourse."

Double the ganger !

It is a must for me to update my blog today because today is 20-10-2010! I'd already missed 10-10-10, so... OK, this is just random. Well, I'd recently finished this anime, Maid-Sama. The anime was totally miraculous. It's storyline, characters, all. I'm moving on to it's manga!! Yay. I also went to buy my prom shirt and pants today. Spent a total sum of $200+. Because I'm too skinny, it's kinda hard to get the shirt that looks great on me. I just hate it... I'd eaten a lot but still not gaining any weight. What do I do? Anway, while enjoying, I'm still uneasy about the unreleased N's results... I hope I can do well, as whats done is done, theres seriously nothing I can do now. Except, to pray. ( Not that it helps )

Flowing like a river

Yeah, as much as I noticed, its HOLIDAY!! N's arrived in a blink and was like over in a second. So now I happily enjoying my holiday, howver a sudden thought of the unreleased N's results make me apprehend... I guess it's normal, since I know I didnt put in my 100% in N's... But who cares, whats done is done. Ok so what am I up to recently? SLACK, OFCOURSE. I spent my 3 days ( so far )[ Frankly, I looked at my watch for the date.. I forgotten the date!] playing games, watching dramas and hang up with friends. Last saturday, I went for kite flying at Marina Barrage, it was fun but kinda tired... I almost starved to death! Usually I'll have my dinner at 6pm, but that day I had it at 8.30pm.... Anyway I also spent much of my time playing L4d2. The newly released new map, "The Sacrifice" and L4D1's "No Mercy" can now be played in L4d2!! Good timing, yeah. Lastly, I'm addicted to this anime call "Kaichou Wa Maid Sama". Last time i use to watch it, and stopped at episode 6 ( I think ).. I went back to that anime since its holiday and I got pretty much time to spend. The anime was sooooooooo fascinating!! I definitely love the storyline and ofcourse MISAKI!! The chemistry between the two lead, Usui and Misaki, are like ♥♥♥♥♥♥!! Although I kinda hate it in a few episodes that Misaki dressed quite revealing.. But its alright I guess, since her characteristic are still quite innocent, naive and distrustful.. Hmmm..

Cut me some slack

Today was the worse day ever. Went through a total humiliation in class. I got nothing to say about it, just that I know I clearly clarified my rights. My teacher thinks she's right, or maybe just for her pride as a teacher, I dun care. If I were to complete those five fucking equation, what would she say? I dare to say that I did memorise those five equation. Maybe it comes so unexpectedly that I suddenly couldnt recall it. Damn it. Unreasonable, thats all I can say. I mean, does she need to get so enraged just because I packed my bag, I dun even know she left things uncovered. Habits of mind teach us about managing impulsively. But I think she wasnt angry at all, she was just doing that for her own pleasure. I totally lost my respect for her.

Then again... why am I feeling humiliated? Being scolded by teachers are suppose to be common, isnt it? Maybe I dun often got scolded by teachers, and when I got scolded in front of the class, its quite humiliating.

Slack ~

It's sad to say that I'm already in holiday mood. I got 2 weeks of rest before N Level, and I'm busying watching anime and eating moon cakes. First of all, moon cakes rocks!! Especially ice-cream moon cake from swensen!! It comes in small quantity, yet it is so addictive!! I love the "Salted cheese cake" favour. Other than that, I'm also busy watching anime. I completed two anime recently. One is my all time favorite, SOUL EATER!!! The series was pretty short, but that might be a good thing as long series anime like hit man reborn is getting more and more draggy.. The storyline of Soul Eater is also very attractive. I wanted to watch more of it, so I went to watch it's manga series, but it was incomplete. And the story is somehow different from the anime. After Soul Eater, I also watch "Darker than black". I started off with its manga series one. Its a random story but it given me a rough idea of how the world of "Darker than black" is like. I moved on to its series 2, which is also incomplete. Next, being intrigued, I went to watch its anime. However I couldnt find its series one of the anime, so I straight away watched series two. The story was quite complicated, but I think I understand some of it with the help of wikia. Both animes are worth watching, highy recommended !!

Bloody Introvert

I hate introverts, so as much as I hate myself.
I hate myself for being a good-for-nothing introvert. This is definitely the reason why I can't make new friends, and can't interact well with others. I want to thank this thing call Internet. Internet allows me to communicate with many people I never thought I could in real life. But I hate Internet because it makes me rely on this voiceless chat. It's hard to express my feeling with a person looking at me. This results a situation whereas I have trouble identifying whether one is close enough to greet each other. Afraid that I might be rejected. Although I know that if I take the initiative to greet first, they will greet me back. However, since I'm an introvert, it's harder than scoring an A1 for science. FFFFing hate this way of life I'm living.

A long day

CRAPPPPPPPPPPPP

First of all, I want to officially anounce that N level English paper one and two is soooo much easier compare to prelim 2. And ofcourse, N Level part 1 is over !! Next paper is science at 4 of oct. Ok, so I'm having a break now. Two days ago, I went to watch my first-ever-watched horror film "Haunted changi" ( Local film ) which turns out to be a big joke. Totally spoiled my image towards "horror" films. But while watching the trailers before the movie started, one movie caught my attention. It's also a horror movie, and its "The child's eye" which is related to "The eye" series. Whats more is that the movie is stared by rainie yang!! I'd never ever imagined rainie acting in a horror movie, and I want to know how it will turns out. After the movie, we went to New York New York for lunch ( Teabreak for me). The dishes there cost a bomb. I ordered smoked salmon salad which cost $13.90 *Heartbreaks* Nevertheless, it was delicious.
Yesterday, I went for the WOW chase. I'm glad that Chen Dong, Han Byeol and Zhi Ying can join us. Yesterday's weather wasnt that good, but I manage to have a great time. It was tiring, yet satisfying.
And today, I thought I will be able to spend a good time alone with my computer, but sadly my computer rejected me by saying "Lacking of disk space". ==" I can't watch soul eater, i can't view my photos, I can't load any videos.
Ahh, I gtg now. Tomorrow I think I will be watching resident evil 3 afterlife to prove myself worthy for 16!! And i promise I will blog about Soul Eater the next time.

Ta-Ta~

Totally, no luck

WHAT DA HAX

OK, today's SS paper was a total bullshit. I studied strategy to manage globalisation, it didnt came out. I studied for diplomacy and deterence, it didnt came come. I know that I shouldn't be angry, initially I knew that I was taking a risk.. However God just wasn't by my side. And after the exam, looking at those friend who bragged about how they will score for the paper just because they studied the correct chapter really pisses me off. Yeah obviouisly I know it's my fault. Anyway right from the start, I'm not intending to include my humanities. Ah yes, I will do well for my English TOMORROW !!


ALL DA BEZT

Lets examinate my goals

Hi, remember this ?

Ok, here is my goals for the next half year of 2010.

1) Study hard and get prepared for Prelim 2 and N Level.

2) Eat a lot and exercise regularly to grow fatter and fitter.

3) Take whatever it takes to keep pimples away.

EXTRA

4) Try my best to get closer to *Dinggg*, well, as a friend.

Yay! Although it's true to say that theres still a long time before this year ends, I'm just going to contemplate the goals I'd made and see if I'm doing well. :)

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1) Study hard and get prepared for Prelim 2 and N Level. - I did, and prelim 2 is over !! > 50% accomplished

2) Eat a lot and exercise regularly to grow fatter and fitter. - Not very well done, bu I did eat a lot !! > 10% accomplished

3) Take whatever it takes to keep pimples away. - Yeah I did but it just KEEP COMING BACK !! > 75% accomplished

EXTRA

4) Try my best to get closer to *Dinggg*, well, as a friend. - No luck :( > 5% accomplished

Anyway, I going to add the 5th goal

5) BE COOL :)

I'm Cool

Well, all I want to say now is, so far so good.
I manage to score a decent marks for my prelim 2, getting an aggregate of 15 points. That's truly remarkable..However, in N Level, whether I can do as well as I'd done in my prelim 2 is another problem. Today I'd done my N Level Chinese Paper 1 & 2, and I should say that it's fairly easy. No doubt I'm going to score for paper 1. As for paper 2, I just hope that I can pass, which I think its not nearly impossible. Currently I'm struggling with my SS. I learned quite a few chapters, which are international conflicts, deterrence, diplomacy and globalisation respectively. ( Chapter 6 & 7 ) It's a risk I'm taking as I'm not sure if those two chapter will be coming out tomorrow. Nobody knows !!

Anyway, just something random.
I think I'm not cool enough, even I admit that I'd tried my best. I don't know why; whether is it lack of confidence, low self-esteem, whatsoever...
I want to be as cool as her, and in fact, even cooler.
How cool will it be cool, and whats cooler than being cool?
Coolness's !!

piece of a past

It's very nice to recall memories of the past, but of course, not the "dark past". I've a nice family, living in a nice environment. I've many friends; friends who share the same interest as me, friends who share the same habits as me or simply friends who are totally contrary in terms of interests or habits. When I was in primary school, nothing seems to be right. But life only deteriorates, so I guess the problems now is still nothing compare to what installed for me in the future.

Arrh.. I recalled many interesting memories of my past, but forgotten everything when ever I wants to blog. :/

Anyway, nausea attacked me out of the blue during F&N lesson.. I was happily getting my marks, then going through the paper when I suddenly felt like puking. Please god, not really a good time for me to fall a sick now... And the feeling sux badly. If this is what all pregnant women expriences...

It's not that I dun care

Why on earth does people like to make me look bad. While going home I saw an old lady. She was having a hard time carrying her trolley down the stairs, so I wanted to help her with it, but a middle-aged lady approached her first. However, the old lady rejected her aid. So I was standing behind her, knowing that she will reject my offer. But it doesn't feel right for me to overtake her, so I was waiting behind. Another middle-aged lady walked pass and saw me, giving an expression like " Why isn't he helping ". SIGH.

Time doesnt spare us

Wow.. time really files this year. Or izzit that I only realise this year ?
A few more weeks to 'N' Level.. I'm treating the prelim as a test for myself, whether I'm ready or not. Honestly I'm not very confident... Theres too many things for me to trouble !! But I think I done a pretty good job for english paper 1 and chinese today.. Lets not mention english paper 2. That wasn't meant for human. The passage is like semi english semi physics. What the crap is LHC ???? But frankly speaking, the second passage about the time travel kinda caught my attention... For the first passage, it was hell boring.. Sigh. Remember I set myself some goals during june ? I really doubt I can fulfill them.. especially the last one.

Streets

When a person is walking on a straight road, he'll have a distinct view of whats happening in front. Then people will lost interest and tend to make a turn, to the left or to the right, exposing to new affairs. Isn't that how people're like? Deserting the old just for the new. But... I'm not even old. Then, why am I abandoned.

A minute and those dogs descended

Enough, is freaking enough. I'd enough of those dogs. I'd being tolerating them since sec 1, exspecially him.. Well, I gonna say I can't stand them anymore. Arrogant, obnoxious and egocentric. Trust me, if possible, one day I will kill you. Every single one of you. Inorder to protect my esteem and pride, I'll try my best to stay away from them. Anyone of them. I'll try to stay out of trouble, provided that they dun provoke me. Even if they does it, what can I do? I'm not their match.. Angry, yet helpless. I dunno if we call that a sin, but I'd love to see their retribution. I hate them to the extend whereas I wish them dead. Knock down by a car or something, just die.

Music

When I listen to songs like "I Go Crazy Because of You" by Tiara, "I My Me Mine" by 4Minute or any Lady Gaga-kind of songs, I will feel very high, I felt as if I'm more than alive. I like the feeling very much. However, when I listen to songs like "In the arms of an angel" by Sarah Mclachlan, "Pieces of my words" by Liu Yi Fei or any slow, peaceful and serene kind of song, it makes me think a lot. I'll tend to think of my past, memories, environment, friends, family... It will also make me feel and sense, the things around us. Arouse my carefulness, enable me to face my hardship. Its just amazing...

Some thoughts

Its really hard to keep up. Sometimes, I wanted to cheat.. I wanted to know your thoughts. Cause I see no point struggling alone. If I knew your thoughts, things would have gotten more easy. I know we're all juvenile, however, I also know that if I lost this chance, its gone forever. I thought it would be good to let go, but its just not fair to me. I doesnt have sarmassophobia.. or thats what I think. Sometimes I wish that I'm suffering from amnesia, so that I can forget all about you. Everytime you ignored me, I felt deserted. However, we did greet each other twice, we did chatted happily once. And I know, I was the one who stopped first. What a mad world. What'd gone wrong.

Task

Assigned to help Star Pets Forum create a new banner.. Actually, I volunteered.
But I realise that its not as easy as I thought.. I mean, I know how to do it, but I dun have the equipment.. Sign, stressed up.

Things to reach

Ok, here is my goals for the next half year of 2010.

1) Study hard and get prepared for Prelim 2 and N Level.

2) Eat a lot and exercise regularly to grow fatter and fitter.

3) Take whatever it takes to keep pimples away.

EXTRA

4) Try my best to get closer to *Dinggg*, well, as a friend.

10th Year Anniversary

Went to school carnival today.. As expected, it wasn't very well done. I went to other schools for their school carnival before, and it was so much better than ours. Some of the things are - Too little activities. The food sold need to be improve, and quantity need to be increase, as most of the food were sold out during dinner time. The stage build-ed for the brooksian idols were way too small. I went to YTSS and PHS carnival last time; they got lots of unique foods and games, special performance and even arcade machines and theme park rides. Alright, I personally thinks that the arcade machines and theme park rides are not really necessary. But thinking that the whole freaking parade square was left empty for the whole carnival !!?? I mean, C'MON, they could had moved the stage for the brooksian idols to the parade square. OK, fine it may be outdoor and it will also be more expensive to build a larger stage.. But, after all, its a carnival. Although I am not very satisfied, since it doesnt really feel like a real carnival, I think I need to appreciate the effort all the teachers and helpers putted in to make this carnival successful ( consider ). I dunno about the dinner since I didnt attend, hopefully it will turn up well.

Nameless

Just created a Wu Ming !!
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/ongshuyang

Time flies

Finally Stepped down !!
Yeah~ The 3-day slacking camp.... oops, I mean training camp was just so preposterous. Yeah, because the intstructors were the onces getting wore out... Nevermind about that, new CSM and DY has been chosen !! Cheers !!

Just came back from lunch with some of the BB Boys. Walked in circles for 1 hours and finally went back to a restaurant we walked pass a few times. Ordered a super expensive food and it was only served after all the other boys finished their food. And guess what ? The food was comparable to food sold in coffee shop.

Word of the day: WAIT

Once Bitten, Twice Shy

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRH.
The results I received today are even more fallacious..
Now, overall, I failed three subjects. Looking at the bright side, this is only prelim 1. I'll just take this as an experiment.
Okay, after receiving those shitty results, I'm so not in the mood to go for a camp. -o-

*Havent finish packing my bag...........

OUCH

Ouch, looking at my results hurt my eyes.
Yes, we got back some of our results back today, and it seems like I didnt do very well. I hardly passed my english and maths, did barely well in my combine science and scored 77/100 for EBS, which isnt what I was expecting. I failed my SS, and now my humanities totally depend on my Geo.. Sigh, so I'm left with F&N, Geo and Chinese. I have totally no confidence in Chinese and had slightly more confidence for Geo. However, my Geo teacher say that my Geo is a just pass. Now I can only hope that she messed up the marks. Since I failed my SS, I need to score tremendously high for my Geo inorder to pass my humanities.. Frankly speaking, I'm exceedingly disappointed with my results so far. Hope my results tomorrow can brighten my day.

沛慈加油！！
我也得加油了~

Apprehension

Alright, exams are over and I'm slacking the whole day. I'm feeling kinda uneasy right now. I know if I dun revise constantly, I will forget all the things I learnt. But its just a few days after exam, I'm not the mood to study. Yesterday came a lady from Nayang Poly and she spoke to us about the Poly requirements and all that, and I couldnt help it but apprehend. I'm really worried, I dunno if I can meet their requirements. I know I have some problems with maths..
And my humanities teacher said that almost all of us failed SS & Geo.. I can only wish that I'm EXcluded.

看我72变-沛慈版！

Wow.. I never thought this song could be so awesome. Like I said, Pets never failed to impress me.

Okay, I know Pets through Ko3anGuo. But when I look back at the time she participated in million star 2, she was so silly and naive ( After all she IS the 星光二班傻大姐 ). I really like that personality of hers. But somehow I dun think that she is 傻 anymore. After Ko3anGuo, I think she got influence by Ah Xiang and become smarter. LOL, nevertheless, she is still so cute.

Just a while

Prelim 1is finally over !!! Hopefully I can pass with flying colours, and i find it isnt diffcult if I'd studied well. Well, I gonna admit this exam, I did study hard. But Im not expecting anything from maths; no matter how hard I studied, I can never solve mr maths's problem.
Alright, enough about that. Since exam is over, I'm gonna slack until it comes again. Oh, that will never happen. Theres BB tomorrow.. Sigh, other UG had already step down, except for BB. We still need to go through the freaking May toture camp before we can step down and concentrate on my studies... But in this case, we are doing the toture. *Evil laugh*

PS: FREAKING SHIT.... I posted my post on BB's blog... Omg...

Forward

LOL.... Prelim 1 is about to end, and I think I did pretty badly !!! < Thats a joke.
I think I did quite well, actually. But theres 1 more suject tomorrow, which is chemistry..
And later on, I will have my F&N practical exam ~~ I am sooooo dead.

Wow, I am enjoying my life as a Pets Lover.. I visit her fans club forum everyday and chat, its really nice. Its like the distance between Pets and me become very close, ofcourse, not in reality.

Oh Yeah !!

Just realise that I've only left so little time before prelim 1 starts. It's really time to break the struggle. I notice that the real challenge starts next year, so if I can't survive this year, it's meaningless to think about the next year.

It's getting real.

Anyway, I just signed up for Star Pets Fans Club a few days ago and chatted there recently. Woots, now I finally start to feel like I'm an official fan, or what they call it, Pets Lover ( CREATIVE Siol ). I really like Pets, for some reason. At first I thought its just because of Ah Xiang, but lately, I think I like her for who she is. Silly, naive yet innocent.

Fighting

And Hitman Reborn! is getting sooooooooooooo interesting !! Ten years later.... The boxes.... The rings. I reached episode 105, and kinda remind me of D-Gray Man ==" Both anime are great. Really, I'm so addicted. Oh, I download Hitman Reborn! OST 1,2,3 Part 1 and Part 2 lor. Oh Yeah !!

I'm Pets Ceng Concert

24-3-10 !!

Pets gonna have her very first SOLO mini concert in the 24th of April !! Woohoo, in Taiwan !!
OMG, I wanna go so badly... But why the hell am I born in Singapore ?
The tickets cost $20 each, but how the hell am I gonna get to Taiwan ?? Ok, so what if the airline ticket is very expensive ?
Who cares ?
I'm going to go anyway. But even so, my parents whould NEVER allow it. Last few week I went to Malaysia and they're already like " TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, DUN GET LOST, ALRIGHT ???? "
Gosh, whos gonna get lost =="
Alright, I guess I can only support my dearest Pets mentally :/
Please visit Singapore soon T_______T

End of the long weekend

Sigh, so here ends the long weekend. Long ? Well, compare to our normal weekend, yes, slightly. Sigh, I'd been sitting in front of my computer for the pass few hours... Homework ? Nope. Coursework ? Well.. I edited my Research and DM a litttttle bit, and thats all. I'm so damned. What time is it now and I still procrastinate. Really have a hard time working on my F&N.. I seriously chosen the wrong subject. Maybe art suit me better, but everything is too late now. All I can do is try my best in F&N, the most I aim for is a pass. I know I need to set my target higher, but its meaningless since I know I wont be able to achieve that. :/

Q&A ?

Sigh, I'd been living so hard nowadays...
Sometimes I really wonder, is the world really going to end ?
After so many years, from the age of dinosaurs till now, izzit just going to end like this ?
How much time do I still have left ? Can I even be successful ?
And how can I invite her to my world ? And am I even going to meet her ?

So many questions, yet not even an answer...
How long am I going to wait ?

* Changing my blog layout, this doesnt suit me anymore ( lol )
* PSSSSS !! April FOOL !! Although I'm really feeling very uneasy now, I'm not emo !! Dun worry :)

Back from Batam

Okay, & so I'm back from Batam !! Reach home @ about 7/8pm. Okay, the whole trip was very tiring, fun and most of all meaningful. First of all, I made a couple of new friends. Most of them came from my group. Speaking of group, I'm the group leader of group 1. Frankly, other den last year BB Torture Camp, this was the first time I got assigned to be a group leader in a camp. This time was more challenging as it was a combie camp. There are a few members which are from the others UG. In the camp, I tried to interact with them and we got to know more about each other ( Not really ). In this camp, I also realised that everyone needs to improve constantly, or the one behind you will soon be in front.

Class Outing

Last saturday, I went to the class outing. Most of my classmate attended too, most, excluding all the teachers. Whats the point of having a class outing without our teachers attending? So teacher's not part of our class? Hahahaha, nevertheless, it was fun. One of my friend's dad brought us ( I mean SOME of us ) there using his big lorry. When I said big, I mean BIG. It was tremendous and I think it can fit 20 over people. When we reach the destination, it was still very early; about 3.30pm. The sun was shining so brightly and I was like " Gosh, I wanna go home ". But I endured the heat, after all, I wasnt the only one getting burnt. We eat, BBQ, cycle and for the first time, I tried volley ball. Frankly, it wasnt bad at all..
Den after dinner, about 9.00pm, almost everyone left. Theres still about 20 + of us there, and we planned to visit the Red House. It was den later canceled as we dun have enough time. So we sat down together and talk about each other. It was den I found out that a lot of my friends doesnt have a complete family. I felt so ashame... I've been their classmate for years and I'm oblivious about everything... I even find out something even more, well... to me, heartbreaking. But I shall not mention it here.
I'd been practicing my guitar assiduously. And I found that I'm still very weak at it. I went to youtube and see some video of guitar expert and I got this thought that its impossible for me to be like them. Sigh. But I'm not giving up yet, even if I'm fingers's hurting now.

The End of San Guo

Ko.3anGuo had come to a finale :( I'm so going to miss this drama.. The ending was quite messy as a lot of uncompleted story was not covered, like lu bu and dong zhuo was still missing. But nevertheless, it was a happy ending. In the finale, my favorite character, Ah Xiang, now known as Ye He Na La Yu Xiang was demonized and turned evil. But I goona admit she look amazing in that dark and evil outfit. Its not the usual tomboyish Ah Xiang anymore, she become so dark yet gorgeous. If theres another drama about how Ah Xiang live in the Iron dimension, its goona be so interesting.

Chinese New Year !!

Time seems to be passing soooooooooo fast !! Its CNY again !! This CNY, I cannot manage to celebrate in Malaysia :( Because I'm need to do my EBS coursework. Currently, Im having F&N and EBS coursework, so Im very busy. Still, no matter how busy Im, I still need to enjoy my CNY. Thats my principle :)
Ok, I just decorated my house with CNY stuffs, it looks much better now. But theres something missing, not sure wether what izzit. I feel so uneasy for not being able to celebrate in Malaysia. I mean, this is my first time celebrating CNY in Singapore. No FIRE CRACKERS !! Whats the point of CNY den :( I really miss the old days when I dun have to worry about anything and free to go anywhere during CNY... Sigh :( Oh well, looks like its the end of JAN 2010 today, cya JAN, and Hi FEB 2010 ! :) :)

Still moving on

1st day of week 2 was fine... Not much homework, but tedious lessons. I know I had to pay a attention in class, but sometimes I just cant concentrate. Thinking of some other stuff..
O level result released today. Some of my seniors got 12 and some 14 points, which is very good. Maybe they really put in a lot of effort. I wonder if I can make it to sec 5, and then Poly. Im definitely not an assiduous student, but I'll try my very best to score well.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year ! It's finally 2010 ~! Omg, its N Level this year !! The first day of school was slacky as usual. Met some of my old friends and chat about our holidays. As I just came back from Malaysia yesterday, I though I would not be able to wake up this morning and I was surprised to realise that I woke up with a clear mind when the alarm sounded. I received my 3rd Birthday persent this year.... I meant last year. First, I got a wallet from my mom, den a handphone hanger from my cousins and now a bottle of pills from my classmate, Han Byeol. I'm just kidding, its not really pills ( I must be addicted to L4D2 ) , its just a bottle of chewing gums. He bought it all the way from Korea :)