Fateful day

Okay.. Today was quite an unlucky day.. not to me, but to one of my friend. We were supposed to have a gathering at 7 for dinner, and I finished my class at 4.30.. That friend of mine said that she'd be ending her class at 5.. So I thought I'd have a company for the next 2 hours.. But she msged me and told me she'd be doing work in the meantime. So, I decided to wait for her... I went to the library.. reading books after books.. waiting and waiting.. Until I started to fall a sleep. When I woke up, I realised that it was already 7... but she havent msg me yet! So I went to meet up with my other group members and GL first.. Then, one of my GL received a msg from her, stating that she won't be joining. I was kinda mad that moment, then I received her msg. She said she can't go because her dress has some problem.. and I asked her what... Then she reply she "Zhao Gengg".. I wasn't sure what that means and I thought whatever happened to her, she got her classmates to help her. I started to randomly give her some advice cause I wasn't even sure whats exactly going on. When I was having my dinner.. something triggered my mind.. and I realise that the whole situation was far worse than I'd expected. Worried, I decided to give her a call. I also realise that I brought my jacket along with me, which might help her in some way. I've decided to go back to school if she requires my help, but it turns out that she's already gone on to a bus. I asked if she has any friends helping her but she said no.. I was really mad at myself for not passing her my jacket when I was in school - that would have saved her hell lot of trouble. She thanked me for being concern, although I know I don't deserve it... I didn't do anything to help out at all. I keep asking myself.. WHY??? WHY??? I should have cared earlier.. sigh

Same old habit

I am someone who believes in love in first sight.. It's never wrong. Then, life proved me wrong once again... The first day I saw her, I didn't even pay the slightest attention to her.. I didn't find her special at all. Then, the second day, she first talked to me.. We'd a little chat, then I find her quite likable.. Even I wasn't sure.. When it begins. Maybe she is just different.. Soft-spoken and caring. I havent seen or talked to her for a week.. and I miss her deeply. It's kind of strange and creepy, but I think of her every minute or so. Sometimes, when I was eating and I thought of her, I got so nervous and loses my appetite. Ofcourse, this ain't my first time.. In secondary school, I experienced this kind of feeling as well.. I thought I'd be free after moving on to Poly..And ofcourse, I know it's impossible.. Even I wouldn't want to get involve in a relationship now.. After all, my lifetime goal is to only get into a relationship once before getting married. I'm not confident in surviving a relationship for 10 years or so, before getting married. However, I won't know until I try. Anyway, this feeling is bullshit. The only reason I'm bloggin this feeling down is because I wanna remember this feeling when I gets older.

Knowledge ain't power.. Knowledge is beauty

Okay, now that I'm on the track towards my dream, I need to have new goals. Since I'm in the course Moving Images, I gonna stick with the media and filming path.. There's not changing. I've been thinking a lot a lot of this. One of the reason I joined this course about filming is that I'd get to see those superstars!! I always envy those backstage crew who get to have close encounter with stars. No! I lied.. that ain't my reason although it's pretty cool. I joined a filming course because of my love for Korean Dramas. I've came to realize the power of media and how it can influence it's viewer. With this in mind, I can use media to apply positive impact on the viewers. But I do have another dream in mind. The world is tremendous and it's really sad to be stuck in a same country for the rest of my life. Since I'm always curious of the culture of other countries.. I say I'd be very pleased to be a document-er. I want to learn, understand and appreciate the culture of other countries.. I wanna learn about their interesting history and heritage.. They say seeing is believing.. hence, I want to see it for myself. I also love animals, so documenting animals would also be a pretty fun thing to do. Some of the documentaries I loved was "Man vs Wild", "Pawn Star", "Ancient Astronaut" and anything related to wild lives, extraterrestrial beings or history of certain countries(Rome) or some lost civilization. But this is a pretty tough path as that'd mean I gonna leave my hometown for very long.. Then I'd miss my family and friends... Still, I wish to see how beautiful the world really is.

New Life

It's been two weeks since I've started on Poly. I love the life here.. I've meet a few good friends already, and I gonna say that I'm lucky enough to find them so quickly. Making friends ain't hard at all, but making the right friends can be pretty difficult. I made a few friends in the orientation camp, and I'm still in contact with them although we don't see each other frequently in school, since we're not in the same course. I've made three good friends in my course.. All four of us watches animes, therefore we got a lot of topics to talk about. In other words, we're all nerds and we suit each other just fine. They are all very nice people, so I feel really comfortable around them. There are other nice people in my course, but they are too loud at times and too hyper, making me few uneasy. On the other hand, I met a girl from my group during my orientation camp. She's a very quiet, reserved and gentle kind of girl. She's also very kind and hence for the first time I felt very comfortable around a girl. We still meet up for certain events after the camp, although she's from a different course. We still chat via facebook or phone. I'm glad we became friend and girl like her is very rare to find these days. I cherish our friendship and hopefully she does, too. Currently, I only have a class everyday, and compared to other courses, my course can be said to be VERY slack. Well, for now at least, since I'd be starting on my second class on week 5. My current class, design fundamental... Well, I say it's really kinda boring. We learn drawing, sketching, shading.. everyday a different method. From line work and layout to pencil shading to perspective drawing to reserve drawing to charcoal drawing to pen and ink shading... Tell me how in the world can I keep up. There are people who took art during their secondary school years and they can shade and draw freaking well. Me... on the other hand, draws like shit. Drawing wasn't really my passion since young. It was just my hobby, and I draw cartoons and stuff. Realistic drawing is a different story. I say current I'm best at drawing using charcoal. Still, my course is Moving Images.. Drawing shouldn't be very important. Thus, I tend to think that this module isn't exactly important. but nevertheless, I'll try my best! Some of my charcoal drawings:

My very first charcoal drawing done in class

This one was done today, a charcoal drawing of Gandhi, dedicated to Shiddu, my secondary school friend.