The people I met

Its been a month....And I'm starting to feel the pressure. Okay, F&N CW, Science practical and Maths. Damn, its just too much for me to handle. Anyway, I just hope that this year of my will pass quickly. Really, spending too much time with my friends will only make me starts to see their unlikeable-side. Actor, attention-seeker, deceiver, flirt, hypocrite.. I see all of them. I'm going through everyday with my eyes closed, ear shut. Sigh, I just don't fit in. School is really uncomfortable, awkward and full of bad memories. I realised that I'm becoming more and more self-conscious, and I got no idea why. Self-esteem and confidence, I got none. I just hope to be alone.

Anticipating the following days

Ok. I shall set new goals for 2011! Heres my list of goals for 2011.

1)Go hardcore studying, pass O's Level with flying colours and join a course I want in Poly!
2) Eat aaaaaaaaaaaalot, get fat and chubby.
3) Practice reading and speak good english ( Ang Mo Style )
4) Boost my confidence and go EXTROVERT.

Anyway, today I was there when the alumnus went to get their results. The atmosphere was so heavy, its so intimidating.. I think not many people did well in the O's Level.. Sigh, its really quite discouraging to see them crying when they see their results. Imagine, next year, it would be me... Would I be confident or nervous? The self-consciousness will kill me! Sigh..

Conclusion for my goals for 2010

Ok, here is my goals for the next half year of 2010.

1) Study hard and get prepared for Prelim 2 and N Level.

2) Eat a lot and exercise regularly to grow fatter and fitter.

3) Take whatever it takes to keep pimples away.

EXTRA

4) Try my best to get closer to *Dinggg*, well, as a friend.

Remember this? Well, this are my list of goals for 2010. I almost forgot to check.. Kay, for my 1st goal, COMPLETED! I'm in sec 5 now so yay! 2nd goal, I think i tried my best.. I eat alot, exercise abit... but everything was gone down to drain when I got sicked.. Yeah, damn. For my 3rd goal, hmm I think i did quite a good job for that cause u can hardy find any pimples on my face. Maybe I'll have a few when my stress level increases in sec 5. Hahaha... And.. forget about the "EXTRA".

Path of dire towards my utopia

In a blink of an eye.. I'm a secondary 5, O's level student. Hmm hows sec 5 so far? Its been nearly a week, and I think its still manageable. I'd tired out an O's level maths paper, and it seems to be ridiculously difficult. But trouble is that I can't even do those type of questions which I was used to be good at. Today I got to experience how dreadful physics really are. Our good N's level physics were nothing but appetizer. But I know I'll get use to it. I must and definitely will. Today I went to take a tour in Republic Poly and realised that Poly life is exactly what I'm looking for. For that, I'll put in even more effort in my O's. Next week I'm going to receive my O's level F&N coursework A question. PLEASE GOD, give us an easy one. F&N is always so intimidating but for sure, it can help me score. Besides academy, my UG will help too, so I must attend! This path I chose won't be smooth but beyond it lies a paradise; or should I say, my utopia.