Sadder than the saddest story

Today, I've watched one of the best, if not, the best Korean film I've ever watched. 'More than blue' is a simple romeo-and-juliet-like story, but the way it was structured in the movie makes it exceptionally breath-taking. At the point of plot-twist I had my jaws literally dropped. It was brilliantly sad and mind boggling. Now, I notices I've developed special likings to a number of korean actresses who age 30 and above. I think I like them for their mature and sisterly vibe which I craves for in real life (I do not have a sister). My favorties are definitely Han Ji Min, Ha Ji Won, Lee Bo Young - who I just got to know (regrettably) and Lee Soo Kyung. Other's being Oh Ji Eun, Chae Jung-Ahn, Han Hye Jin and Lee Ji Ah.

3 Personal Songs

Well God knows how long I haven't wrote something on my blog.. I guess i was just plain lazy. Life's still being the same - Boring at times, stressful during the period of p1.. It's still interesting but I just can't find the motivation to note it down. It's year 2 and I'm a junior now. Class is still the same, I'm still as lost as ever. It's like there is no advancement. Maybe there is but not that I'd feel it so closely. Sometimes I feel like I'm really alone. Friends, classmates.. do they really matters? I feel as if they are all going to leave when the time comes. I always lied to myself that I'm always alone and hence I'm independent. The truth is I'm not. Not at all. All the time I yearns for someone whom I can rely on. In fact, I've always been looking for people, only to be shoved away. With this, songs came to my mind. Songs which I think describes my life perfectly. Firstly, "Creep" by Radiohead. A fantastic song. Sometimes I see myself as a creep - an unsociable creep. I wondered if I don't mix well with others because I'm weird. Secondly, "Someone like you" by Boys Like Girls. I've always running away from the divines. I grew up as a Buddhist, praying with joysticks, burning paper and stuff. Then, when I was exposed to other religions, I felt damn lost. Why are there so many religions which contradicts each other's beliefs. I felt really scared and decided to stay away from them for the time being. Sometimes I claim to not believe in Gods anymore, but then occasionally I found myself in need of something to believe in. I hope to find someone in the future, someone who I'm willing to follow. Well, "Someone like you". Lastly, I'd have "Story of Us" by Taylor Swift. The lyrics speaks the exact sentiment of the time which I got cold with.. "Jerry". We used to chat so much and suddenly everything just dies down. It's really stupid when I think back. It's like we cross path and both of us waits for other one to greet first but that didn't happen and we thought we somehow offended each other and never talked ever after. Ridiculous.

Paradise in Mind

There are dreams that you'd forget the very moment you wake up, and there are dreams which you wish you'll remember for eternity. I'd a lot sweet and happy dreams.. Dreams which I wished that it were real. It need not to be lucid dreaming.. freedom isn't much when I'm acting exactly what I wanted to. I'm not an expert, but from my personally experience, dreams are experienced through our sub-consciousness, so even if I'm not in control of my mind like in lucid dreaming, I'd still react to how I want things to.. after all, it's my world. I've often get dreams which involving meeting my crush; be in celebrity crush or real crush. Strangely, those dreams only appear once and never again.. I mean, for each crushes. Well, yesterday night I receive a dream where I was with Jin Ye Seon in a car.. I recognize her as Park Ha (From Rooftop Prince) and she introduced herself as SaRa or something.. Very weird dream, but kept me smiling even after I woke up. It's funny because before I slept, around 1 plus, I played Resident Evil 6.. and my angry mom warned me that if I play such a scary at late night, I'd get nightmare.. HAHA. Nightmare.

8 Candies

I knew it! 2 months of holidays seem to have past so quickly. I've completed many dramas in these two months; Ghost, Rooftop Prince, Cain and Abel, Bridal Mask and many more.. And the thing is, all of them are awesome! Bridal Mask is an action-packed epic drama, something like iljimae. Cain and Abel is unique because, for the first time, I've no idea which couple to root for. Well, before it became clear who So Ji Sub's character is going to be with, I really have no idea. While So Ju Sub was really sweet and romantic with Chae Jung Ahn, it was extremely cute when he met the clumsy and dorky Han Ji Min. Rooftop Prince, also cast by Han Ji Min, was no doubt another addictive drama. Like Cain and Abel, it involves some very mean antagonist who would even go to the extent of killing a person to achieve what they desire. However, you'd feel relieve thanks to the loving couple in the drama who gives each other their fullest support. I've come to admire many actresses recently. Last time I used to stay infatuated with just one at a time, but I didn't realise how much I've missed. There are plenty of outstanding and talented actresses out there and they deserve all my support as well. So now, I've decided to support all of them! No prejudice! Here's the list of actresses who I think deserve recognition. They are the most outstanding among those that I've ever known. 1. Lee Yeon Hee

2. Lee Soo Kyung

3. Han Hyo Joo

4. Han Ji Min

5. Ha Ji Won

6. Goo Hye Sun

7. Jin Se Yeon

8. Chae Jung Ahn

Anyway, I'm watching Five Fingers now. It's such a good drama and it frustrates me to see how the drama fails to attract many viewers. The ratings are also ridiculously low. I've to wait a week for two episodes since it's still currently airing in Korea. In any case, I'm looking forward to each and every episode of the drama, and especially Hong Da-Mi's brother story.. I'm eager to see how the good old brother would do to get revenge. Will he turn extremely evil? Hahaha.. I wish I know.

Bad meets the Good

It has been the third week of my school holidays, and as usual, I spending it in front of my computer - Watching movies and dramas. This is a well-deserved holiday and I was planning to make full use of it. Well, watching movies and dramas can be considered constructive since it's relevant to my course! HAHA! Okay, I was finished plenty of dramas and movies recently, like "The King 2 Hearts" and "Ghost". I'm planning to start on "Rooftop prince". I always do not have the motivation to start on a new drama after finish a good one, because I'm still stuck in the previous story. "Rooftop prince" is a popular drama and I know I'd love it after I start watching it... but having to start on it is a problem. "The King 2 Hearts" was extremely good and kept be thinking about for a long time. "Ghost" was good too but, just not as impactful. It started well, but it starts to get exaggerating after the first few episodes. There were a few epic moments but I spent most of time comprehending: "Is that even possible!?". Okay, so just now, I have finished a movie called "A Millionaire's First Love". The title of the movie itself have already intrigued me to the core. My interpretation: A rich and obnoxious guy falls in love with a sweet and simple girl? Gosh, definitely my cup of tea! The movie isn't disappointing at all.. In fact, it's really well done. I saw comments stating about Lee Yeon Hee's poor performance in that movie but I feels like she did great. The pain of losing someone you love, it's excruciating, but the concept is cliche in movies. This movie put it off well. The death was anticipated, but it was the process that is priceless - How the two protagonist spent their last few moments, and how the girl finally departs. The movie is still revolving around my head now and I won't ever forget how beautiful the movie is.

Big Fish

I always thought that politics were boring.. But the drama "Daemul" really changed that thought of mine. I always know how influential media can be; hence never underestimate it. I've completed the drama and I really gonna say that besides the interesting plot, the drama has a really really good sound track. It's soundtrack isn't like the dreamy kind, like Secret Garden Ost, but very strong and powerful in the emotion. Initially, I watched the drama for Lee Soo Kyung; I knew of this drama quite long ago, but wasn't motivated to watch it because I hated politics. Although Soo Kyung's screen time in Daemul is extremely little, I enjoyed the drama nevertheless. Definitely one of the best drama I'd ever watched. I'm still infatuated with Soo Kyung, so I'll be starting on "Colour of Women" and "Dear Heaven", as well as rewatching "Golden era of daughter-in-law". I totally love her bright smile!

Soulmate

Wow... I've just finished an old drama, "Soulmate" starred by Lee Soo Kyung. I can't help but like Soo Kyung more and more.. She has this really friendly face, and her smile is just... too intoxicating. I love her in comedy, but I gonna admit she is really good in sad dramas too... She can just burst into tears within seconds.. That's really remarkable and impressive. Anyway, Soulmate is really a unique drama. The concept is really special, and the soundtrack is just perfect. The ending of the drama is also kind of like a cliffhanger, make us crave for a sequel (Sadly there isn't one). The drama started off with a few characters with different story, completely unrelated to one another. Then, as the story develops, they start to meet each other and it gets more and more engaging. The drama also started off really funny, really comical.. Near the end the drama became really emotional. I totally love those scene where the lead male and Soo Kyung cross each other without noticing their presence. Those scenes, combining with the awesome soundtrack, was ridiculously beautiful. The soundtrack, "C'mon through" and many other songs have such huge impact for me.. After all, I'm a huge fan of indie music. The ending shows the male lead and Soo Kyung separate - The male lead went to america while Soo Kyung stayed in S.Korea. However, three months later, Soo Kyung decided to go to Japan to study photography. Ironically, it turns out that the male lead also went to Japan for some reason. Whether they met in Japan wasn't shown in the drama, I guess they want to leave it to our imagination. I wasn't expecting such an ending and the thought of "Would they meet again in Japan?" gives me goosebumps. My guess is that they did meet each other in Japan, since I believe the two are true soul mates. Great drama, very unique. I love comedy + emotional drama.. Where there's a balance between sweetness and pain. The poster of the drama also looks really interesting:

Beauty is defined by your smile

It's 2.40am... And it's Saturday! A few hours ago was still Friday.. and I spent quite sometime to finish two of my assignment. I'm finally getting the pressure of poly life. I'm lucky enough to have started on my research earlier.. cause I've just receive more assignments! All must be handed in on Monday. I'm also done with my wiring sculpture.. Something I do not wish to do ever again.. it's not only tedious, but also painful. Well, because I do not have the necessary equipment - the pliers I used were all rusty. Anyway.. I guess I'm having a new celebrity crush now.. She was in my list of 10 top already, I'm just increasing her position. She is none other than Lee Soo Kyung. Her role in "loving you a thousand times" (I'm current watching) is just too sweet to resist. Ever since I saw her in "Golden era of Daughter-in-law", I knew she have some kind of potential. I've a thing or two for girls with a sisterly vibe, and she's just perfect! Furthermore, she smile is comparable to Hyo Joo's.. I've no words to describe it. She is current my top 4.. nearly 3, along side with Lee Yo Won, following Ku Hye Sun at top 2 and Han Hyo Joo at top 1. I don't think she is very famous because I mostly see her in soap opera only.. And soompi don't even have an official thread for her, so it's kinda hard to get more information on her. I've just saw an old video of her and min woo (from shinwa) playing a game in Xman (Variety show). I remember seeing Hyo Joo play that game before and it's really hilarious. She and minwoo were so cute!! And her last comeback was really awesome... Minwoo asked if he have a place in her heart, and she replied "Of course.. But only a very very small portion of it" causing huge laughter. I gonna say I like Minwoo really well too... He treats girl so nicely! I'm going to post the video below.. Enjoy that cute little game! :)

Fateful day

Okay.. Today was quite an unlucky day.. not to me, but to one of my friend. We were supposed to have a gathering at 7 for dinner, and I finished my class at 4.30.. That friend of mine said that she'd be ending her class at 5.. So I thought I'd have a company for the next 2 hours.. But she msged me and told me she'd be doing work in the meantime. So, I decided to wait for her... I went to the library.. reading books after books.. waiting and waiting.. Until I started to fall a sleep. When I woke up, I realised that it was already 7... but she havent msg me yet! So I went to meet up with my other group members and GL first.. Then, one of my GL received a msg from her, stating that she won't be joining. I was kinda mad that moment, then I received her msg. She said she can't go because her dress has some problem.. and I asked her what... Then she reply she "Zhao Gengg".. I wasn't sure what that means and I thought whatever happened to her, she got her classmates to help her. I started to randomly give her some advice cause I wasn't even sure whats exactly going on. When I was having my dinner.. something triggered my mind.. and I realise that the whole situation was far worse than I'd expected. Worried, I decided to give her a call. I also realise that I brought my jacket along with me, which might help her in some way. I've decided to go back to school if she requires my help, but it turns out that she's already gone on to a bus. I asked if she has any friends helping her but she said no.. I was really mad at myself for not passing her my jacket when I was in school - that would have saved her hell lot of trouble. She thanked me for being concern, although I know I don't deserve it... I didn't do anything to help out at all. I keep asking myself.. WHY??? WHY??? I should have cared earlier.. sigh

Same old habit

I am someone who believes in love in first sight.. It's never wrong. Then, life proved me wrong once again... The first day I saw her, I didn't even pay the slightest attention to her.. I didn't find her special at all. Then, the second day, she first talked to me.. We'd a little chat, then I find her quite likable.. Even I wasn't sure.. When it begins. Maybe she is just different.. Soft-spoken and caring. I havent seen or talked to her for a week.. and I miss her deeply. It's kind of strange and creepy, but I think of her every minute or so. Sometimes, when I was eating and I thought of her, I got so nervous and loses my appetite. Ofcourse, this ain't my first time.. In secondary school, I experienced this kind of feeling as well.. I thought I'd be free after moving on to Poly..And ofcourse, I know it's impossible.. Even I wouldn't want to get involve in a relationship now.. After all, my lifetime goal is to only get into a relationship once before getting married. I'm not confident in surviving a relationship for 10 years or so, before getting married. However, I won't know until I try. Anyway, this feeling is bullshit. The only reason I'm bloggin this feeling down is because I wanna remember this feeling when I gets older.